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Internet Harassment

I honestly don't feel good today. I had a good time last night, but I think I had too good a time. I'm tired, my stomach hurts, my head hurts. It's not even funny. And I hate when people harass people on the internet just because they don't agree with what some people do or say. I just had this problem on fanfiction.net. FF.net is my home and I was just harassed by someone who hadn't been there as long as me. But it is what it is. And I'm 18 now, I don't have to worry about people being immature because I'm an adult now. If anyone here is on fanfiction.net, please don't flame him, but just be weary of him. He attacked me and called me an airheaded idiot for smoking. I made the choice to start smoking and I will make the dicision to quit and if he had been nicer about telling me he didn't like smoking, then maybe I wouldn't be on here telling the world about him. Even after we stopped talking about smoking, he continued to harass me. I got sick of it and asked him to stop, so hopefully he will. Now, I'm really not feeling well, so I should go lie down for a while.
Ok, so this whole thing with Casey Anthony has caused a split in my family. I'm on one side and everyone else is on the other. I'm not here to talk about the jury's decision. She could very well be innocent. Or she could be guilty. Or her whole family could be in on the situation. I'm here to talk about how pissed off I am at the world. She's just one thing about this world that I hate. I hate that the media makes celebrities out of murderers. I hate that celebrities aren't looked at as normal people. At the end of it all, these people we see on tv are just human beings who are talented. That's all. We shouldn't treat them like gods, we should treat them like normal people. I'm sure that's what they want. They'd probably be bored with people kneeling at their feet all the time. Like if I ever met Sharon Osbourne, I wouldn't be acting like she's not a real person, I would be normal about it. I wouldn't flip out! It really gets on my nerves when people flip out over celebrities. Casey Anthony is no different from any other murderer if she even did kill her child. People shouldn't act like she's a monster. She's a human being, people! The media always blows everything out of proportion. They sound just like my mother!

Friending Meme I Jacked

About you:
Name: Holly
Age: 17
Location: Calhoun Falls, South Carolina

Fandoms:
Fandoms you're currently active in: Beverly Hillbillies, Keeping Up Appearances, Magic School Bus, Handy Manny
Actors & Actresses you dig: Nancy Kulp, Selena Gomez, Diane Keaton, Meryl Streep, Demi Lavato, Johnny Depp
Favorite fandom characters: Jane Hathaway, Margaret Drysdale, Pearl Bodine,Elizabeth Warden, Ms. Frizzle, Kelly
Fandom ships you sail: Jane/Margaret, Jane/Pearl, Jane/Milburn, Margaret/Milburn, Jane/OFC, Pearl/Elverna, Elizabeth/Hyacinth, Elizabeth/Mr. Warden, Frizzle/Seedplot, Frizzle/Carmina Skeledon, Kelly/Manny, Kelly/Female Character.
Fannish contributions: Stories

Random is good!
Your college major (or intended major?) Education or Drama
Your favorite animal: Cat
Your hobbies and other non-fannish interests: Writing, Volleyball, Nature, Food.
Your favorite song right now: Lady Gaga "Dance in the Dark"
Your most frequently visited website: Fanfiction.net and Emowire.com are tied for first right now.

Your el to the jay: (insert Link here)
The type of LJ-er you are: (how often you post/comment etc:) I post as often as possible
What you look for in a friend: Someone with an open mind who won't ignore me.
Anything else you want to say or post: I'm emo

Going Emo

Well, the recent shit that's been going on in my life coupled witht the influence of my brother and sister has finally led me to become emo. To me emo doesn't mean wearing black all the time even though I do wear black and I do listen to the music. To me, emo means self-expression through clothes and poetry and music. I love to accessorize with black jewelry. My favorite thing to wear is my black choker with the silver flower charm. I never take it off. I also love dark nail polish and lots of eye liner, but that isn't what makes me emo. What makes a person emo is their lifestyle. My advice to anyone who feels like emo is who they are and they just want to get started: start living the lifestyle and everything else will fall into place.

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Better Post Before Someone Gets Worried

No one reads this journal anyway. I've got a lot of crap going on in my life right now. I've been in the mental hospital with suicidal thoughts and cutting. I got arrested for shoplifting and wound up on probation. I got into a fight with my mom. But the important thing is that I'm trying to get my life back together. And I thought I'd pimp some of my fanfiction because I'm just a bitch like that! LOL!




Magic School Bus-

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6933168/1/The_Truth_About_Janet

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6160003/1/How_do_you_Solve_a_Problem_like_Ms_Frizzle


Keeping Up Appearances-

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5764858/1/The_Curtains_Were_Closed_for_a_Reason

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6319101/1/The_Blossoming_Affair_of_Hyacinth_Bucket

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6807944/1/The_Magician_and_the_Lizard_Girl

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6886470/1/Together_Forever


Handy Manny-

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6022458/1/Kellys_Secret


That's all I feel like posting right now because I woke up in the middle of the night with the urge to cut myself and I did it, so I'm supposed to tell my mom, but I couldn't do it, so I messaged her on facebook and I'm worried about what she's going to say when she sees it.

I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!

I DON'T CARE THAT I'M TYPING IN ALL CAPS!!!!!! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN IF IT SCARES SOMEONE!!!!!!!! MY LIFE FUCKING SUCKS RIGHT NOW AND I JUST WANT TO END IT!!!!!! BUT I WON'T END IT BECAUSE I HAVE A FAMILY AND I HAVE FRIENDS WHO DEPEND ON ME. THAT DOESN'T STOP ME FROM BEING PISSED OFF!!!!!!! THIS GIRL AT MY SCHOOL IS A BITCH!!!!!! SHE GETS ALL BENT OUT OF SHAPE JUST BECAUSE OF ONE LITTLE THING AND SHE DECIDES SHE'S GOING TO BE MAD AT ME FOR IT!!!!!!! THEN MY FAVORITE TEACHER PISSED ME OFF BUT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HER BECAUSE I HAVE MORE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO LOVE ME AND SHE NEEDS TO STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH!!!!!!!! SHE AND I ARE GOING TO FIGHT AGAIN BUT THIS TIME WE'RE NOT GETTING BACK TOGETHER AND I DON'T CARE BECAUSE I'M GOING TO ASK A NEW BOY OUT AND IF HE DOESN'T WANT ME THEN I'M GOING TO ASK SOMEONE ELSE OUT. IF PEOPLE JUMP DOWN MY THROAT AGAIN TOMORROW I'M LEAVING AND I'VE GOT SOME CHOICE WORDS FOR MY TEACHER IF SHE DECIDES TO BE A BITCH TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

I Really Need to Get Back into This

I haven't been on LJ in forever! I really need to get back into this! I haven't been feeling up to it lately but I do promise to try to post more often. It's not like people actually read my rants anyway! I should have warned ya'll that I have paranoid schizophrenia, so I've been battling that and it has not been easy. I'm going to write some fanfiction while I've got a little bit of motivation. This is a very shaky time for me right now because I'm finally accepting help and trying to work with my councelor and psychiatrist; whereas, before, I didn't care if I got better or not, I just told them something so they'd have something to document, but now I want to get better and so I'm not entirely stable with all this medicine they're trying on me. I can't stay on any one thing for too long, so it's a good thing I have many fanfics in my head! LOL!

Update on my Life

Well, my life hasn't been awful, but there were a few days when I felt like I'd been hit by a train. I had been quite a bitch for a while and then I went to appologize and learned that you can't piss some people off and then expect everything to be okay the next day. I was completely crushed by the woman I've been in love with for two years and I didn't stop crying the whole day. I seriously considered hanging myself with the ribbon I had in my hair. I put it on my status on facebook and it totally upset my boyfriend. (Yes, I'm bisexual!) Anyway, so my boyfriend was super mad that the woman had hurt me and threatened to kill her and I had to talk him out of it. I was crying myself to sleep that night when something just took over, I can't explain what happened, I just kept chanting a spell over and over again. Well, the next day, the woman made it a point to talk to me and hug me and she wouldn't stop smiling at me when she saw me. I think I subcontiously put a spell on her. So, that's how my week has been so far. I'm also really loving the weather we're having right now! I hope it lasts! It's so beautiful! And the sun has brought my cute little strawberry birthmark back! I'm so happy to be feeling better!